But I don’t wanna have to go that far
We all had this idea at one time or another.
Why do I have to that for him, he’s not that special.
Who is that girl for me to do this?
He’s decent and respectable and that is why.
She’s still my friend, but that’s too much!
The question is why. Why don’t we want to go that far?
I have two reasons. First, I’m not courageous enough to go that far. This is also one of those times I overthink. You process the whole situation and the pros and cons, yet you still feel like it’s all wrong. Coz this means that you’re going out of your comfort zone. You cringe at the thought of doing something that could fail, that could make you feel bad, that could humiliate you. And no one would like that.
Second, in some way, I know that it will hurt my pride. This is hard to explain especially because we take our pride differently. But we all know that feeling, right? No matter how many times we tell ourselves that we should forget about that at least once in a while, it’s still hard. We can’t just bring ourselves onto something we know we might regret doing.
But going that far to do something could turn out nice as well. It all depends on the situation—what’s at stake, who’s involved, and more. Maybe our pride would automatically step away and the hero within us would come out when the moment is right.
Bitter: The taste of doing something you never thought you’d do. And/or the taste of doing nothing because of our own reasons.
Sweet: The taste of our comfort zones. And/or the taste of whatever good happens once you step out of it.
Why don’t you want to go that far?