You used to shine so bright but I watched all of it fade
You know that moment when you suddenly learned the truth about someone that causes your admiration to fall? Maybe some of you do. And I feel you.
There’s always an actor within us. And we get so blinded by our love to a person that sometimes even though the whole world is screaming something, we still don’t listen. We choose not to hear them and continue believing the person we’ve set our eyes on, the one we knew for so long that he wouldn’t do anything like that! Sorry to break your heart, but he would, and he did.
Looking so innocent, I might believe you if I didn’t know. That’s another line from Taylor. And we echo her! Sometimes I wonder why other people could act as they did and if they still have conscience. But who knows, maybe we could also fall in the trap. In the trap of looking so innocent and saying sorry while the other end don’t believe us. Who knows?
We’re happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time
This one’s hard to explain. But in a day, there’s no way we wouldn’t feel this. There are just so many emotions and it seems like they are not contended to have their own time. They wanna be felt all at once. Or sometimes, after Happiness goes, Sadness will come right away. It’s harder if Loneliness wouldn’t wanna leave you.
But sometimes we’re also happy, free, confused, and lonely in the best way. And that is something no one could explain.
Livin’ in a crazy world, tryin’ to figure out what is and isn’t true.
One of the many things that we always do is to know whether something is real or not. Everyday we are faced with different situations that make us question the validity of a certain matter. We try to look deeper so we could figure out if what we see or feel, or what’s before us is true. We wanna know if emotions are genuine, if what we get back is really what we deserve, and if what’s happening to us is just right.
Some things, we could easily determine, but probably the most difficult thing to conclude or to understand is what we feel. Or what others feel. It’s even hard to tell when someone’s being honest or not because we know for a fact that we ourselves are also capable of lying. So finding out our true feelings is a little complicated especially when we try to deny what’s in our hearts. What more the feelings of others? Of the people around us? Trying to know if they’re sincere or otherwise could make us go nuts.
In this crazy world, we sure have a lot of figuring out to do.
Did you have to hit me where I’m weak? Baby, I couldn’t breathe.
Aside from being embarrassed when someone picks out on you in front of people you know, the more painful thing is, I guess, having that person repeat over and over your weakness as if you don’t already know it. But the most painful thing out of the three is not being able to heal. When others just can’t seem to get enough of cutting your wound deeper.
Did you have to do this?
Pretends he doesn’t know that he’s the reason why.
Being deceived is a hurtful thing. Pretending is the same as lying. And it becomes more painful when you know that someone is not telling the truth.
They say that the only people who could hurt us are those we love or care about. I didn’t understand it the first time I heard of it but over time learned that it’s true. We can never really hate someone we don’t love the same way only we can hurt someone who loves us. Betrayal, pretensions, dishonesty, deception, and so much more. There are many things we could do to make the ones we love aching. And that’s because they never thought we could actually hurt them.
The pain of shattered glasses on our feet is never greater than the pain of a lying loved one. At least we know that once our skin touches the ground with the broken pieces, it will bleed and hurt. But we never would have thought that someone we love could hurt us, because we believed in them.
A song that sounds like a death march
We all dread one song in our life. Or even a few.
You are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl
They say people don’t always end up with their greatest love. Is that true?
This is surely not what you thought it would be
Most of the time our plans remain just like that, plans. And every time I keep wondering why.
My heart has never felt this way before
I am waiting for that moment when I’ll finally say that. My heart is still young when it comes to romantic love. I have never felt butterflies in my stomach the way you do. Nor did I go through so much pain I don’t feel like living any longer. Extreme emotions caused by a special someone haven’t happened to me yet. I may be looking forward to love but not to pain, though I know it’s inescapable.
There are more feelings in the world I don’t know of. Weird, beautiful, crazy emotions. All waiting to be felt. All wanting to be felt. And no matter how ugly some may be, as long as I don’t die because of them, I will just be here waiting, hoping(?) until they come.